Well, you talk about nothing really. Or about the fact that you’re pissed off with yourself because you spent too much money and are now worried about the rent check. [Sigh] I hate it when I feel this way. More over I hate it when I am broke. The only Solace I have is that I went through the ENTIRE Christmas time without putting anything on my Credit cards. For me, that’s huge! Trying desperately to get rid of all the past debt so I am trying hard not to use them at all, and Christmas was the big test. I passed, but at the cost of high stress when it comes to rent time and I look at my bank account with sweat pouring down my brow. I also realize the downfall of keeping all my banking online. See, I have cash, so Money 
is not an issue if I need emergency bread or such. The problem lies in that, if I bank online, the only way to deposit money is Direct Deposit, or Mail Deposit. Now, I am not going to be mailing any cash through the postal service. So how do I get the money I have to where I need it? [Sigh]
In Other news, I am starting to get into a funk. I have a bunch of things that I want to get accomplished, and I am lacking the motivation to do them. I have a new Idea for a video project, the desire to exercise, massive amounts of cleaning, I would like to redecorate but that involves money, of which I have none. (Anyone want to call TLC and book me on one of their shows?)
Speaking of News, I have noticed something about myself and current world events. I really don’t care much for them. I mean, I care when something bad happens, but I can’t really bring myself to sit and watch the news to find out what’s going on. If it’s that important, I am sure I will find out about it one way or another. Besides, the media really pisses me off. Honestly, how much video footage needs to be shown about a tsunami causing damage? Yes, it’s horrible, yes people lost their lives. But the actual tsunami lasted for how long? Maybe a few hours. Is there nothing else going on in the world? Oh, wait, I forgot.
There is always Scott Peterson, because that story hasn’t been beaten to death.
And if I get tired of that, I can always find a Bush Bashing channel.
So why bother? I love my TIVO now because I don’t have to watch any of it anymore. But the question is, which is better, Living in Denial or Living in Fear?
[Sigh]
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